You’ve been, well, not great. It’s felt like it’s been about 2 months and 84 years all at the same time and I’m not all that sad to say goodbye.
This year, I turned 26. My birthday was kind of a bummer for reasons that don’t really matter, but I was with friends and family so that’s all I can really ask for. But I hit the point of my
I got to see AJR with my best friend, Sam, and it was one of my highlights for the entire year. Those 3 weird dudes quickly became one of my favorite bands to listen to and I still smile when a few songs come on shuffle remembering that night.
My aunt visited from Pennsylvania. My family and I hit one year in our apartment and resigned our lease. We’ve spent so many late nights together in our living room, binging tv and snuggling our cat Penelope. And speaking of cats, I adopted Periwinkle! Watching Peri and Penny become friends has been incredible, and having two furry babes to hug every day never fails to put a smile on my face.
My friends and I celebrated each other’s birthdays. We tried and failed our first escape room. We had tons of board game nights, although we haven’t in a while and I super miss them. Snack plates, screaming matches, throwing cards, and laughing til no sound comes out. Our game days were good days. But there were also coffee shop dates, skype sessions, celebratory dinners, and plenty of PJ days. And those were all good, too.
For the most part 2018, you felt slow and lonely. All my favorite memories feel spread out and distant, with huge blocks of nothing in between. Looking back, if I had to pick one consistent word to sum up the year, it’d probably just be ‘sad’.
But you weren’t completely terrible. I had a few adventures around Disney. We made it to the Flower and Garden festival and Food and Wine, too! I even made it to Magic Kingdom at least once, pretty early in the year. All I can think about is getting back as soon as I can because man, I miss it. Mickey ears, parades, smiling with characters, and seeing the castle. When 2019 comes around, I’m going to need a healthy dose of magic.
I went to Pride and collected rainbows. My best friend Lexi and I went to see Good Charlotte – my favorite band since I was 10. We both cried and it was absolutely one of the happiest nights of the entire year. By far.
I got used to having a job and a consistent schedule. I even almost got used to waking up at 7 am, but that still really sucks. While I’m bummed I didn’t get hired on permanently, I didn’t lose my job either so I’m counting that as a win.
I might have kept my job, but I lost my wheelchair. My chair that I’ve had for almost 8 years, that I’ve trusted and depended on for everything in my life. It’s currently sitting in the corner of my dining room and I’m writing from my loaner chair. Because 2018, your biggest disappointment was the fact that my new chair has been approved and denied twice, and it is now impossible I’ll have it before you’re gone.
And now we’re here. Christmas is just a few days away and 2019 is inching closer and closer. Honestly, I’ve just been holding out for January. My family is so lucky to have each other and a place to live and to be able to spend our money frivolously from time to time. But still, the past twelve months have been so much harder than I ever expected. Every time things started to ease up, the other shoe would drop and we’d be struggling all over again.
So, 2018, I’m really grateful for all the good things you brought me, but I can’t wait to see you go.
Bring it on, 2019. Let’s see what you got.